It's 2am plus on 27th of April... I'm surprisingly still awake... Can't really sleep too.... Today wen tover to granny hse and mahjong with aunt and cousins... After tat went to Seng Siong there for dinner... And after tat went all the wat to ALoha Loyang for Thomas birthday.... Before i went, ask my father to bring down my cig as i forgotten to take out and so unlucky tat my sis and mum saw it... So both my sis know about it but not my mum... So unlucky day for mi right? Reach there and only mi and xiong... The rest are all relatives of Thomas... So chat with xiong and also thomas for awhile la... Both of them went into the same topic seperatly one after another... So i got to ans both times... And it make mi rather down when i recall everything....
Yesterday night send alot alot of sms to her... Cause i finally gave up toking sense to her le... She's still so stubborn as before and i really dunno how to convience her in lstening to the right advices.... She really think she so smart and in actual fact, she's so naive... I could predict tat after all the sms sent her yesterday, she's gonna hate mi even more... But tats the way la... Facts and good advices are always hard to the ear... Sometimes, time really make ppl understand more... All these time actually make mi realise tat going against the fate wun be a wise choice... Letting go is hard but other than tat, nths gonna turn out well... I browser thru facebook these few days... Found out tat she already deleted a few photos of us... i guess its another action showing tat the desire she had in wanting mi out of her life... Its been 6 months.... The person i'm today is still the same person i'm before.... As in i still love her... I still care for her.... And i still wishing her to be by my side... Even though it may seems to be impossible anymore.... I guess tats the fate i have to go thru... Its destinated tat i have to be in this state and learn thru it.... Letting go of someone whom u love most in the life really feels like letting go of ur own soul.. nobody shld go thru this in fact.... So ppl out there... Pls Pls Pls treasure the loves one beside u right now.... Dun regret it only when it finally reach a stage where u can't change anything... Even though there may be idiots whos out there creating destruction.. I'm sure if u put all ur love in and treasure it sincerely, u'll hav ur happiness... Treausre and not take it for granted and ended up in a state where u become someone u urself hardly recognise....
I gotta go fight my mind now... Forcing myself to get onto the bed and rest for "programmes" waiting for mi the next day.... Gotta wake up at 8.... Tats all folks... TATA....
Nth is important at all...
Love gone so nth to say about it...
Shes the one for me that i search thru million...
Now, without her in my life, I nid to go thru another million to forget her....
The two lines above are rubbish...
I'm on my own and i'm hold on to my own life.... :D
Cravings
My own life
My own house
My own car
My own kids
My own..... :D
