Past memories... 24th June 2005...
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When u love someone, u'll wished to be with her everyday...
When u really love someone so much, u'll juz wished tat she'll be happy even not with u....
When u love someone so much even more than urself, u'll juz wished tat u'll be with her everyday and give her the best in everything... Taking care of her and love her every single moment of ur life... Cause u know tat if u lose her, It'll be juz like ur body without the soul...
Its a blessing to actually find someone who either love u so much or u love so much.. i'm indeed lucky tat in my life, i had met someone who's able to make mi love her so much.. She may think tat i'm not the one for her, but she'll be the one for mi.... Having her to leave mi is something i'll nv be able to put down forever... Be it wat ever reasons for her to do so.... Even its painful to carry on loving, still my heart continued.... Continue loving her as much as i do... I tried stop thinking about her... But sad to say, The feeling got deeper as i run away from it.... Maybe in this world, we are not able to be with the person we loved most with whole of our heart..... Its a game of fate and life which we can't control or change... If i'm given another chance, I would rather lose everything than to lose her.... If i can choose, i would rather i din din love her so much... Maybe if i din love her so much, i wun be losing her right now...
I came across this question,"Do u believe love in first sight?" I wanted to say i dun believe cause it would be only based on looks and not the understanding of a person.. How can u claim u love? But i somehow change my mind... I rem the first time i saw eemin... It was in our sec sch... I shall skip the details.. The first time our eyes met and i was actually attracted to her... Maybe cause of her look, Or maybe any other reason... The second time was at a musical at Singapore Girls School... This time round, i know she'll make an impact to my life... And having her sitting next to mi make mi nervous and happy.. Till the third time i saw her. I was in love with her....
It was juz a short period of happiness... After seperated for some time... We met up again in one of the Chinese New Year... And from then on, we'll go out for movies and dinner... We behaved juz like good fren and tok about almost everything... There's this one time when i was having dinner with my big family, and we smsed and she mentioned that she love the chilli crab... Without thinking, i simply order a take away and surprise her by bringing it over to her place... At that time, both of us din know we had already fall for each other... I still rem tat after we got together, when we tok about this topic, she told mi tat she can't stop smiling when she was eating the chilli crab... Cause she felt so sweet and happy.... Juz by imagine, i was so contend and happy tat she had tat kind of smile on her face... I dun think i hav another chance to see this smile again....
I also rem the time when i start off the relationship with her.... I rem after numerous time of movies and dinner, I finally pick up the courage to confess my feelings to her.. At first, I din know how and wat shld I do… In the end, I juz do wat a normal guy shld do when he wanna confess his feeling… I arrange to meet her at Jurong Point for movie tat day… I still rem tat she actually smsed mi telling mi she may not be able to make it back as she was doing her final yr project in sch… And she din wanna rush back for the movie… AS I already had everything planned as to confess, of course I wun wanna smash everything so I told her I dun mind waiting and she dun hav to rush back de…. So I went Jurong Point earlier tat night to buy something for her to surprise her… I bought her favorite, Lilies… And while waiting for her, I was so nervous and keep on walking ard with the flower in my hand… It was the first time I bought flowers for a woman, I was abit embarrassed walking ard holding on to a bouquet of Lilies… When she arrived, I still even arrange to meet her somewhere whereby there wun be so many ppl so as not to be embarrassed if I’m rejected… She looked so surprise and I could see that there’s actually some sweetness in her eyes and smile tat day… When she asked mi why I gave her flowers, I din even dare to say I love her and wan her to be my gf… I think she muz be waiting for mi to say tat but I din said at all… I replied her saying I think they’re nice so I bought for her… Haha.. So lame… So we went for dinner and after tat walk her home… She was all along waiting for mi to confess when I walk her home… But I said nth about it and even said bye to her when we reach her doorsteps…. So I went off…. Maybe I was too deep into the sweetness we both having tat I even forget to confess my feeling… On my way home, I know tat if I dun confess I’ll be wasting the effort in arranging the flowers and making her rush back for the date.. So I sent a sms confessing my feeling… It was so not romantic at all…
I rem I din received any reply from … I thought tat I din make it and she muz hav think tat I’m not sincere at all to actually asked her to be my gf thru sms instead of face to face when I hav the chance… I was in fact very disappointed and feel abit sad at tat time… It was until my hp suddenly ring and there’s one msg received… Its was from her… I think tats the most happiest moment I had in my life… I can still rem how happy and sweet I was tat night… I couldn’t stop smiling to myself and telling myself how happy and blessed I’m… Tats the day I wun forget… 24th June 2005… This day marked the day where I started a relationship with the woman I love most in this world….
