Few days nv update my blog le.... These few days was quite disturbing for mi... I'm back into my depression yet again... For the same old reason haunting mi again and again... Juz went to my boss's mother funeral.... Got alot of tots after attending... I juz find tat life's full of unexoecting events.. Juz like her, who's so normally and yet suddenly passed away within few days after having a stroke... Her husband was crying so bitterly during the funeral... I wonder somehow its really heartaching for our loves one to leave before us... how i wish maybe when i'm leaving this world, i wan my love one to be right by my side... Think tats the most blessing thing to actually be being together as we leave the world....
I still send her smses for the past few days... I HATE her... HAte her deep and forever... But not really the hate... Its a different kind of HATe... HAte her for i'm not being able to keep her by my side.. HATE for not being able to make her stay... Thinking of her and her being in aother person's arm is reallly killing mi... Somehow i juzz think if i'm more successful right now, owning a hse, car, money and stable job, will she come back?? i really dunno... i juz wish her to be happy forever... But i know tat my happiness lies in her... If she's by my side, i think i would really become the most happy person in the wholle world... Maybe thats wat we called love... Making my life complete with her being part of mi.... Without her, it seems like everything in this world juz doesn't seems right for mi...
When will my tears stop rolling?? When will my smile from the heartshows again? When will the time when i feel complete come? Days, weeks, months, yrs and decades... I could juz stop everything, but not time.... Not the love i had for her... Not even for a single moment.....
Tml i'll start another chapter of my life... This chapter without her physically with mi.. But mentally, she'll always be by my side forever... For as long as i can remember... And its gonna be forever.....
Nth is important at all...
Love gone so nth to say about it...
Shes the one for me that i search thru million...
Now, without her in my life, I nid to go thru another million to forget her....
The two lines above are rubbish...
I'm on my own and i'm hold on to my own life.... :D
Cravings
My own life
My own house
My own car
My own kids
My own..... :D
