For the whole week i nv write any post at all... Not because i got nth to write.. Not because i am too busy to write.. Its because i purposely run away from updating... Alot of things happened this whole week... So many things tat i wish i can write out in the blog everyday to say out wat ever is kept in my heart.. But i can't cause i dunno who's reading.. The person whom i wished very much to read wun bother reading... But some ppl whom i dun wish them to read will read in fact... Its not tat i dun welcome them... But sometimes i would rather hav some privacy tat i dun wish these ppl to know...
Been crying and thinking... Loving someone so much is really torturing... But when we love someone, no matter how torturing it may be, we still love and sometimes even more... Relationship between 2 person is unpredictable.. One who loves u till the end of time right now, might juz change to someone who take u as though u are transparent to them... Being treated transparent is heart breaking.. But this is not the worse... One whom love u and u love him/her may seems to be a very strong relationship, but all of a sudden, he/she hates u and dislike u to an extend which u din expect at all... Being hated and dislike by someone whom u love alot is heart break and a saddist... And this is not yet the worse part... One who u loved leaves u and u believe tat as long as u hold on to it, there will be miracles... But time to time, u are proved tat all this so called miracles are juz wishful thinking of yours which will nv come true... And finally, u saw something u dun wish to see at all and wun believe ur own eyes seeing it... It appear juz in front of u like tat... And here comes the worse part of everything... Even though all these shown and happened in front of u, but in ur heart, u still can't stop loving this person... Not even by a little bit... Where did all the dignity go?
There's a saying in chinese.. Opposite of love is hate. When u love a person, it's either u continue loving or this love juz become hate. Nothing else but hate.... Tried my best to change this love to hate... I din succeed the previous time.. I can try again... Maybe it might juz work this time round.. Its really difficult to hate someone too... Especially someone whom u love alot alot... All these are juz destiny... I really dunno wat to do... Is hate the only way out? Pls give mi a sign!
Nth is important at all...
Love gone so nth to say about it...
Shes the one for me that i search thru million...
Now, without her in my life, I nid to go thru another million to forget her....
The two lines above are rubbish...
I'm on my own and i'm hold on to my own life.... :D
Cravings
My own life
My own house
My own car
My own kids
My own..... :D
