DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU?

"Woman i loved most"

Well... Got insomnia yesterday again.... Thinking of dunno how she is and wat life she's living now... Happy with that person? Even though we all know its not the right thing, but still thats wat she chose... Which make mi can't sleep and make my eyes tearing again for sometime...

Was looking thru my phone.. I can't really rem since when i start naming her as "The woman i loved most" in my contact... Since we broke up? But dun really rem when... I recalled tat during the time when we were together, I name her as "Dear" in my phone and she too name mi tat... But there's once i change the phone as previous one was faulty and since then i nv stored her number in my phone... Simply due to i can juz memorise her number in my brain.. Her mobile and hse number was juz like my own... I wun even make a mistake remembering the number... It took her quite long to actually rem mine... But she put the effort as she dun used to rem anyone mobile in the heart... She did it cause i once asked her and she can't say out my number so she went to memorise... I remember clearly tat there's one quarrel betweeen us and since then, she change the name of my contact in her phone... She change it to "Kevix".. Not "Darling" or "Dear" anymore... I found out and ask her to change back but she refuse as i din even stored her number in my phone(well, i din stored as it was as army phone and i'm not gonna use it for long...)

I dun really know why i name her as that now... Its indeed true tat she's the most loved woman in my life... But since i made the choice to let her go and purposely make her hate mi more, den i shldn't be still doing all these right now... I've got something even more important for mi to concentrate on... I shld put all my concentration on it.. But on the other hand, she's still rooted deep into my heart.. Making it impossible to pull her out of it....

fake a smile@2:42 PM

走出束缚，寻找寂静的空旷很容易。只是太多人已不自觉地习惯被束缚。

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