DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU?

Good news... But sad.....

Today work till very late... i left office aat ard 7pm... One of the latest timing... Today afternoon, received a msg from Jon... telling mi he got a very very bad news.. Meaning tat he actually fall from very high up there after being pin too much hope on the good news... I really felt sorry for him... And somehow i wonder why not only mi hav to go thru all these, even my frenz ard mi hav to go thru it too... So went to meet him right after work... These 2 weeks, I met him everyday to help him get pass all these suffering....

So after the usual hang out, we stop by at WF hse which is also her hse area... At this point of time, XW called him... And finally they got back together... At that very moment, I felt happy for him.... I really did... i smile from the bottom of my heart... But after a few mins, I hav a very strange feeling.... Somehow or rather, I feltt Unhappy.... I really dunno why... I shld be happy tat my fren got back happy....

Seriously, i really dunno... I felt lonely and sad... not tat i wan Jon to be in the same state as mi... I truthfully wan him to be happy... But i juz blame fate... I'm kinda envy tat he got the chance to once again hold on to the love of his life....I ask god.. Why can't i hav the same results as him? Did i do anything lesser? In fact not... I juz did more things compared to him... Much more things which is in fact too over.... I blame myself... Blaming why i decided to start afresh on 25th and yet i din managed to do it..... I'm really useless....

Lastly... I'm indeed truthfully and sincerely happy for Jon and Xw.... I really hope to see these 2 good fren of mine walking on the red carpet one day... With mi being bestman or not....I really felt happy juz now when he broke the news to mi... Even though the happiness inside mi last for only few mins... But still i'm glad and happy to see this outcome... Jia You!!

fake a smile@3:13 AM

走出束缚，寻找寂静的空旷很容易。只是太多人已不自觉地习惯被束缚。

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