Wow... More than a week without a new post... Wahaha... Anyway, this is a dead blog... Haha... I think i even forget about this blog myself... Sometimes i wonder why this blog is still here... Its was initially set up to blog about mi and her... But it seems tat the reason is gone...
Was still busy with sch and work for the past week... Everyday tired but yet stll i can't hav a good sleep... Only for that one special day where i actually forced myself to sleep and sleep the whole day... I made a decisiona and try to fufill it... i think i'm slowly reaching my goal... But yet yesterday night i dreamt of her again... I dunno why... Its true tat i still miss her everyday(after all she is the woman i love most) but i keep telling myself to surpress the feelings.... Tat persiod of time i will juz go to her void deck and sit there smoke and think of evereything... Maybe its a place where i really can throw everything behind and juz relaxed myself... In a way la... But now i already move a step forward by not even going there at all... At least i did make a big move... I know i'm getting better... Cause i muz treat myself better when the others dun treat mi well enuff... If even i myself dun treat myself better... No one will....
I'm also trying to hav a new look... growing beard... Dunno if i look good.. But a new look is better than staying the same... Maybe it indicated tat i've changed?? Trying that new look out...
Got a GOOD and a Bad news... GOOD news: One of my cousin getting married in August and another in July.... BAD news: The cousin tat getting married in July is due to Shortgun... And the guy wasn't popular in the whole family... I shldn't say not popular... I shld say Dislike... I really dunno wat my cousin thinking... But after all she made this decision on her own.. Even if its bad, we still hav to respect her decision and give her our blessing... Juz like E.... She made her choice... Juz let go and respect it... I guess no one can forced another to go on aa decision where everybody wished them to go.. Lifes full of surprise after all.... Juz like how surprise i was when she initiated a break up... So, nth can be done after all...
Well.... Few things happened to mi in a funny way... One of them is MY MOTHER ACTUALLY PERSUDED MI IN GOING TO A MATCH MAKING SHE ARRANGED WITH HER COLLEGUE'S SISTER... WTH!!! She really scared mi... And somemore telling mi when i was having my dinner... I even hav to run away from the table after rejecting her and before i finished my dinner... Resulting in mi having a unfilled stomach thru the whole night... I really dunno wat she thinking at all... I know she's concerned, but pls dun do things tats too extreme....
Sometimes i keep thinking... It really breaks my mum's heart seeing mi getting thinner and thinner day by day after the relationship.... I know she dun wished to see mi in this state... She would rather seeing mi healthy and cheerful, and still having a serious relatonship with eemin... But sometimes things juz dun go the way we want...
I'm really worn out after the whole week... With SIX FULL DAYS of work and studies... But this kind of hard time will soon be gone and better life will come... I'm confident and willing to strive for it... Gambateh!!
Nth is important at all...
Love gone so nth to say about it...
Shes the one for me that i search thru million...
Now, without her in my life, I nid to go thru another million to forget her....
The two lines above are rubbish...
I'm on my own and i'm hold on to my own life.... :D
Cravings
My own life
My own house
My own car
My own kids
My own..... :D
