24th June 2009....
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Again... In a blink of the eyes and this date come again... 4 yrs ago, this day is a special day for mi... And i'm always grateful tat i live with this day coming into my life... But yet 4 yrs later, It became a real nightmare to mi....
I bought a bouquet of lilles juz like the day 4 yrs ago... And for the past few years, i did the same... For this yr, i juzz simply throw the whole bouquet away... Cause i really got no courage to bring it to her at all... I tried msging her but yet again, another disappoinment with no reply.... Sometimes i really dunno wats going on... I felt my life being destroyed with a reason i dun even know.....
How i actually passed this MARKED day in my life?
I stay out basically the whole night... I rem wat exactly happened on the day 4 yrs ago... I simply juz went thru it again... Walking from Boon Lay market to her hse... With a bouquet of lilles in my hand... Th only difference is this time round... I'm alone.... I even went to this particular Jap res where we used to like alot at taman jurong... I dunno why i went there... But it seems tat i got calmed after being there.... I simply juz nid to be alone for some time.... Being issolated myself... Giving myself breathing space and not letting anyone see this weakling part of mi anymore....
This day, 24th of June... Will always be MARKED in my heart from now and forever, It'll be the day....
