Trust mi once more.... Learning from mistake....
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Today, i had a long talk with my boss.... Was expecting something bad as after all, my mistake cause the company a lump sum of almost $100,000.... But in the end, Things turn out better than wat i expected... My boss was telling mi tat the mistake i make can't be undone... Rather than sitting there scratching my head and keep thinking why i make the mistake, thinking who to blame or blaming myself, i shld work even harder and try to salvage the situation by minimising the lost... Or maybe do extra harder in other job so tat we can make extra profit to cover the lost in this particular project... He also said tat this mistake i did was actually good as i can learn from it and do better in future.... And this mistake is something tat money can solve... Cause losing this $100,000 wun cause the company to foll up... But if the amount is big den nth can be done.... He told mi tat in life everybody make mistake... If the mistake is something money can buy, i shld feel lucky.. Cause some mistake is made where no matter how much money also wun help... So i shldn't stop there and blamed myself for it... I shld move on....
Listening to wat he said, i suddenly start thinking about my relationship with eemin.... This mistake i make in this relationship is as wat my boss had mentioned.. A mistake tat money can buy... This mistake cost mi the most loved person in my life... And its really something no matter how much i pay i wun be able to buy back... His words make mi realised tat i shldn't stop here and keep on blaming myself for tat... I shld move on... DO better to salvage it rather than staying there fight without putting in effort... I finally know tat wat i shld do now is to work hard and gain this relationship back... I shld work very very hard and proof to eemin tat once again trust our relationship is worth it... I am doing it now... I'm trying to brush off all my bad habits as in smoking, phone bills, responsibility and also character.... i juz wan her to believe mi once more and give us both another chance to show tat our relationship is worth after all...
So eemin... I really dunno if u read my blog... I dunno if u feel anything after reading this post... Wat i wanna say is tat i'm learning to be more mature and better to salvage our relationship... Bringing it back to the point when we were once so happy... Pls believe mi in it... I'll be able to show you that... And now, wat lacking is the chance given by u... Pls trust mi once again.... Let us build this future of ours together.... I think this would be the best birthday gift i can give u....
