I'm really juz a loser.....
<3
Today was fucked up.... I really felt tat i'm so useless... This Kung Ching Road project was so important to mi and yet i messed it all up... Such a disappointment to everyone... But i disappoint myself even more... Why can't i do it all right?? This small mistake of mine cost mi more than $70,000.00... Although it may not be from my pocket, but i make a lost in such a big amount.... Why am i so useless??? Am i really cut out to be a loser??
I even sms her telling her tat... AS per normal, i dun get any reply from her... Maybe she already changed her phone number... I really dunno... I even bear the tot tat she might reply mi with some encouragement.... But still i dun get it... Its not her fault... I can't ask for much... But i juz wished tat i would received it... MAybe it might really lift mi up from this depression... But its seems tat i'm really nth to do with her anymore... REally nth... I admit tat the importance of this project come partly cause of her... Its was her childhood home... But in the end i messed it up again... Think i'm really not cut out to be a winner in anything i do.... Everything juzz seems to turn out bad when it comes to mi.... I really got no dignity at all... If shes still with mi, i think i'll be an even more bigger disappointment.... Thats mi... A disappointment in this world.... Loser.....
