Save mi.....
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Today was really hetic for mi.... Work stuff, Family stuff and also Eemin stuff... Today i really find myself so useless.... Work was so stressed up... Been counting material for Park Hotel project... My eyes are so tiring and brain was stuck too... Maybe i juz not concentrate enuff.... Cause My whole mind was Eemin when working too... She still actually block mi... I'm so useless...
When i reach home... Sent my sis for tuition... Had a quarrel with her in the car... I'm sure most of my fren knows tat my dad haven been working for quite some time... So basically he's juz sleeping the whole day and watching tv thru out the day and night even now when i'm writing this post... Tats not the best... We actually found out tat he took the gold jewelries and pawned it... Exactly $4k... And due in arp which is 2 months time... Despite we do give him some money every now and then... He can still go and pawn for money without telling us... Wat has he been doing tat nid so much money for someone who nv go work and everyday staying at home??? Why muz he create more trouble for us? My mum is still kept in the dark now... Mi and my sis we actually hide it from her... Cause if she find out den it'll tear this home apart... Mi and my sis we are trying to find ways and means to gather this 4k to get it back... Because of this, i quarrel with my younger sis... Cause she say i everyday nv do anything to help out the family and only knows how to sit in front of the com... Does she knows wat i'm going thru now?? Studies, love and work all are not looking godd for mi... I had alot of stress currently with no one to tok to... I tried getting Eemin to give mi some console but she din even reply mi.... I cried by myself in the car for whole one hour u know? I nv dun help out... I did... I looking for another part time job concurrently... Cause i know without my dad working everything is getting tougher....
Eemin matter also make mi break down.... She really juz block mi and ignored mi... Its really very hurting... Cause till now i still love her deeply... All i wan now is to be fren cause i know now i got no position to make her come back to mi.... I juz wish things get better in future... But she still block mi and ignored mi... For a woman i love so much more than i love mself... But she dun hav the faith in mi...
All these made mi broke down... I'm losing my appetite again... Losing spirit in life again.. Once again i fell into depression again... No one i could tok to... God.. Is this a test for mi?? Cause i really can't take it anymore.... Pls would u help mi?? Save mi.....
