Happy Birthday to myself....
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Its 12 plus le.... Means its my 24th birthday.... These few days i was very worried this day to come... But in juz a blink in the eyes, this day arrived.... Yesterday and today was so emotional... Cried in the bathroom when bathing.... I tot my tears are all dried up... But still it rolled down....
Everyone said tat i shld be happy during my birthday... I tried... I told everyone i dun wish to celebrate this yr... But who wun wanna celebrate? I made this decision cause the person whom i wished to celebrate isn't here to celebrate with mi anymore... I dun expect anything.... Not in the position to expect too... Still, in my mind i wished that she would juz celebrate with mi... Although its all juz my wishful thinking, but hope it come true... But really too late... Cause its already 12 plus... Haha...
This yr.... My wish is still the same as previous yr... These 3 yrs i've been having 2 wishes... One is of course everything go well in family... The other is to be with her till the day we leave this world... But Without her by my side i dun even know if i can still hav the wish come true... I prayed and wish for it to come true juz now at 12 with mi crying in the bathroom... I already sincerely wished for it...
Eemin... The love i had for u is true and something i can't let it go... So every yr i still put it into one of the 2 wishes.... Like u always said, i'm always unlucky... So maybe this wish wun come true at all... 幸福是自己争取的... How to 争取 is to hold on to this love strongly... And wishing for it quietly and patiently in one corner.... one day, dunno when, it might really come true....
