Trying hard....
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Yesterday went to buy vouchers with my cousin for tml Company dinner lucky draw.... When sending her home, She finally ask mi about mi and eemin after waiting for so long.... So i told her everything... As i was telling her all about us, I can't control my tears again... I promise Jon the day before tat i wun shed any tears for her anymore... But still i can't hold on to tat promise.... Rem tat when i was nose bleeding profusely for continuously 2 weeks, i once told her to leave if anything happen to mi before i went for check up.... She tell mi not to think so much and she said she wun leave mi until i'm really gone... When she said tat, I was so happy then and promise myself to love her even more... Tats when i love her more than used to be and more than anyone else... When i think of tat, my tears juz drop down like tat even though i tried to stop it... I'm someone who wun cry in front of any of my family members easily... But i couldn't hold it yesterday....
Today went to IMM so get vouchers again... Was walking ard and once again rem everything about mi and her.... Going there for dinner and all other stuff and time we spend in IMM... Theres alot of places which i have been to with her... All these bring back memories and make mi wanna tear again....
I'm trying my best now... Trying to be a better person... Trying to stop sms her, call her or wat ever... Its really tough... But i still hav to do it... I still hav to let it go in order for mi to be a better person... Everyone.... I'm really trying my best... My very best....
