DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU?

Stupid of mi...

SYesterday after going out with jon, I went over too her void deck again.... she wasn't home by then.... So i juz sit ard and smoke.... Ard 2 plus, i went to shift my car from one place to another. While still in the car, That Bastard drive into her void deck. At that time i know she saw mi so she actuually ask him to drive off again thinking tat i wun know about it. After tat she went one whole big rnd and went up but i saw it. After tat i finaaly decided to confront tat bastard. As for wat ever thing happen between mi and the bastard is no point to elaborate anymore. Wat i can say is i'm totally useless as i din even thinking properly if not den i would have juz land some punches on him. Well, in the end whie toking to him she called him. I tell her loudly i juz wanna tok to her and she dun wan. She can tok to him and not even mi once. Tat the pain. But, Tats also when i know she dun love mi anymore anymore. Yesterday night i deleted all my facebook, friendster and my msn in hers. I think this is the best i can do. Juz really disappear from her life would be the best and try to make her disapear from my life. after doing all tat i cried again. This time round, i think i juz wanna cry everything out. I cut myself again yesterday. dunno why but juz did. Maybe i juz can't hold on this alone. Juz nid to give it all up.

fake a smile@11:53 AM

走出束缚，寻找寂静的空旷很容易。只是太多人已不自觉地习惯被束缚。

2 Comments:

do u think its worth doing all this?? if u really punch the guy n get into trouble because of this do u think it is worth it?? as for ur family...i think that they are always on ur side dun think too much la...even though they may seem harsh sometimes but i think afterall u all are still family lo...just try to 4get her. i know its hard but your family n friends will be there to support u..n pls stop hurting urself it's not worth doin it.

By jOn, at January 18, 2009 at 2:15 PM

zzzzzzz y u cut urself!!!!!!!! really must use a big hammer to knock u awake!!!

By wanwan, at January 18, 2009 at 11:44 PM