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Today went to work.... First day of work was okie.... Well, my job now is something like assistant engineer... Learning things from my "teacher", an engineer name Tang... Today i learn how to look at drawings of the project... (Forget to mention. I'm currently working in an construction firm.) Learned more about wat material to use and how the project goes... Today, i was actually looking at numbers, counting total of material used for the project... Spent the whole day looking at 5 pieces of A3 size drawings and differtiate the things on the drawing... Tml shld be starting on Autocad drawings on the com... Tats one of the hardest and difficult thing i'm learning... So stress and excited..
Juz met her parents as i was helping them to buy some medication and nid to pass to them... From her parents behaviour in this meeting, somehow i feel tat the chances of mi and her getting back together is almost 0%... Although i called and talk to her father after tat, his reply seems so also... He mentioned tat he thinks she's not interested in going back into relationship with mi anymore.... They nv say anything but from the behaviour and ans they give mi, i can guess as much... On the way home, i keep telling myself to juz forget all about it la... Really no point holding on to it if its only mi holding on... But yet, still can't let go of it at all... Think i've sunk too deep into it... Festival coming closer one by one... Each festival doesn't seems to mi like one at all... Its juz another day to suffer more without things for mi to numb myself...
Sometimes i hate why there is something called love in this world... If there is no love, i wun be suffering right now... But yet, if there is no love, i wun be able to get to know her. Wun be able to hav all these memories we had.. Seems like nth is perfect at all... I used to think maybe her parents are able to turn the table ard... Thinking maybe there might be a chance... But now, Everything has failed... Not even her parents can do anything about it anymore... Is there anymore ways? The ans is no... And yet still i'm not able to let go... Maybe tats wat we call 爱一个人好难.... 爱真的太伤了，我痛得快死了，却还是无法把妳忘了。 This is wat i'm really feeling... Maybe she understand how i really feel, Juz tat she can't do anything about it.... Cause the love she had for mi is already dead in her heart... But, thanks tat u did once love mi so much... Its all juz tat i din really treasure it before....
