I'm sorry....
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First, I would like to apologise for my action... When i started this blog, it was mean for mi to hav a breathing space for my to post my feelings and unhappiness... it was mean to juz also tell her how am i doing and the life i'm living without her.... But instead, i posst entries on things tat was too much due to my immature thinking and action... I hereby sincerely apologise to those that i have hurt with my post...
In fact, i was abit too extreme when i was posting the entry... I've said things tat i shldn't hav and also things tat was juz said in fit of anger... And it hurt alot of innocent party... I wun hav to say out who are those... In fact if the person is reading den he or she shld know.... I was wrong to actually say things without really understand u tat well.... Wat i can say is, i said those things on fit of anger... I admit i'm someone who couldn't control my temper and emotion well... So, hope u dun mind too muich about it.. I dun expect u to forgive mi or watever... But as a guy, When i did something which is wrong, i shld stand out and admit it and apologise to you... So pls accept my apology....
Ppl tends to regret alot of things... When they're doing, its juz a venting of anger.. But when they cool down or being pointed out their mistake, Den they regret doing it... its the same for mi... I'm not a perfect person... I got alot alot of bad habits and i do alot alot of stupid things.... I couldn't control my temper and emotion well... MAking alot of mistake which led to hurting and unhappiness due to my uncontrollable emotion.... Tats mi... Sorry for tat mi....
As a form of apology and respect,i hav deleted tat annoying entry to prevent unneccessary misunderstanding and unhappiness....
So back to the daily posting now...
I wasn't been able to sleep for the last 2 days... Was out with Han, Ling and Ying for dinner today.... Went to meet them in Taka which i still dunno where they're going for dinner.... In fact i was thinking tat they might hav decided on the place for dinner... in the end none of us hav any suggestion... Haha... So i make the decision of going to Sushi Tei since we hav no particular place in mind... My feeling was abit tossed as Sushi Tei had alot of memories of mi and her... Although still not much appetite on the food, but manage to stuff something at least.... But the gathering was still fun though... Cause of that idiot Han who mention something tat led to alot of gossiping and topic... After tat went to meet Jon again and have this long and fulfill chat with him with the absent of Wan... Haha... Sorry Wan... We guy nid some Gay chat too... He make mi understand some things to make mi more determine and know wat direction i shld be heading to.... So after tat still reach home at 3 plus... Same as usual...
I admit i'm still sad.... I addmit i'm still loving her... I admit i juz couldn't give her up yet... But, I tell myself tat, I shldn't still continue hurting her... I had hurt her more than enough.... I shld juz walk away and stop doing things to add on to her suffering.... I told myself.... If i really still love her, i shld love her in a way tat i wun hurt her.... I shld juz step aside and love her in my heart... Giving her breathing space.... I can only juz wait and wait and wait for one day in future she might come back to mi.... I shldn't expect tat there will be one day she will come back... Cause after how i hurt her, i wasn't really deserved to be given another chance... But in future, I juz hope this day is there.... Tat will be the best i can do for her now....
So dear.... I'll still love u more and more everyday.... I'll still miss u every single minute.... But all these, I'll hav to keep it in my heart with the memories of u, together until one day i can finally bring it out and hav tat another chance to say all these to u in front of u again.....
wanwan, at
December 2, 2008 at 12:43 PM
