Trying my best to salvage already....
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Make a call today to arrange for christmas... Had been planning to make it my last chance... I really tried my best... If this time it doesn't succeed.. Den i'm really gone... Juz hope every go well on tat day and i can get that Special thing done by then.... Really nid to push myself to finish it... Think tats the best i can do...
Been sending sms and msn to her today... Still... No reply AT ALL... Is it already gone? No more Chance left? Or she juz nid some time? I dunno at all....
Juz reach home... Pass by her hse as Jon nid to send weifeng home... Shes still not home yet... Maybe still out wiht her GOOD fren... Jealous? Ya maybe... Cause the one at her side wasn't me.... Its shld hav been mi.... Cuddling her to sleep and Kissing her good night.... FAct, Not mi....
This Christmas will be the Show down for mi.... Either the colours come back to my life, or i'll be perished to darkness forever.... I've to be prepared for the worst... Dunno if i can really take it.... Try hard Jinman... Jia you...
PS : Its really hard to swallow the fact tat the love isn't ard anymore... i really dunno if its still there.... Hope its not gone... Christmas... White or dark??? 
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November 29, 2008 at 3:59 AM
