Pack day... But...
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Today i juz occupied myself with things.... Do so work and juz kept on trying to find things to numb myself..... Play bball also with dawei they all... But still the same.... Still sms her still called her and still think of her... Hai... I'm not siao sa at all... Hate myself for the past... HAte myself for everything... But wat to do??? Already in this state le... Too late... Shld hav Done in the past i din do... Only hav myself to blame now.. All too late... Chance given not cherished... Why??
Wat the fuck am i doing?? I deserved all these hell and shit right now... Pray to god also no use le... No one to help mi and nth could be done... Still love her so? Still miss her so? Still wan her so?? Still need her so? Still hope to hav her come back so? All these are too late.... Really too late... Fren out there, cherished wat u hav and hold on to wat u hav... When it comes to regret, living in this world seems useless and meaningless to you... Everything in this world still move on without u.. Everyone in this world still live without u .... Tats life i'm in now... Not life, Its no better than hell.....
PS : Sorry to sms and call u and spoilt ur leave day... Hope u wun be effected by my stupid moves and act.... Maybe choosing to be with mi is ur biggest mistake in ur whole life... To mi, being with u is the most beautiful thing in this whole world..... Love you forever.... 
