Hai~ Changed but....
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Was out with a fren juz now... She juz broke off with her bf for 2 days... Seeing her is juz like seeing myself for the past few months.... Couldn't eat, sleep or drink.... Couldn't stop but smoking one stick after another... Commited suicide... All these are wa ti see in her now... She juz sht herself away from the outside world juz like wat i did for the past month... Wanted to help her but know exactly how she feels... No matter wat i said, she wun listen... Juz like mi...
I've really changed alot since then.... I change to be more forcus in my career and work... More motivated in life... All these changed to made myself a better person... I dunno wat these changes will bring mi to.... I dun expect returns that i'll get for all these changes... Cause i know all these changes came too late... Dunno if she'll accept mi once again... But i know i'm really changing for the better..... Still she ignored my sms although i juz wanna get the photos of us from the past memories.... I juz wanna hav an album to remind mi of the happiest memories i hav... Is it too much??? I dunno... But i dun blame her for ignoring... CAuse i really did too much and hurt her tat much... So i dun even know if i deserve to hav those memories... I juz know for sure tat i've really changed... Dunno if she will look at mi once more... But definately.. I change for the better... Be it even there wun be her in my life anymore..... Miss, i still miss her.... Love, i still love her.... But does all these matter anymore?? Dunno... For sure i know, i've changed.....
